Ag Venture :D

Woohooo! That's what I said when I tthought I  was going to Ag Venture with Brookelyn. Then Mrs. Silva had to go and burst my bubble, which she actually enjoyed doing :/ You see, Ag Venture is a day that 3,000 third graders go to our school farm and high school ag students teach them about things related to agriculture. I didn't go my sophomore year because I thought it would be lame, but then my friends came back to school during 6th period and told me how much fun they had. High school students can be tour guides for small groups of 3rd graders, or presenters when they make a display board and teach the kids, or they can be a corn presenter where they recite a script about corn. Well I was going to be a presenter last year but they needed more guides so I became a V.I.P. guide which meant I gave tour guides of the farm to the superintendent. This also meant I had to be in FFA Official Dress. Greaaaat. So this year I was determined to be a presenter with my friend Brooke. We wanted to do bows or ribbon since we are in a floral class and let each student make their own bow. Mrs. Silva agreed to let us be partners until I walked into her 4th period class on Tuesday and saw my name wasn't next to Brookelyn's, instead it was at the top by itself. I asked myself why I didn't have a partner anymore, then realized that because I'm the President this year I have to be in Official Dress AGAIN and that I have to be a guide AGAIN. Can you tell that I'm bitter about this? I looked at Mrs. Silva and asked if she hated me, she just laughed. So I drew a :( next to my name and walked out of the room. I'm pretty bummed about this now and no longer looking forward to Ag Venture.

my Daddy's gift :)

So right now I'm sitting in my living room, listening to music and waiting for my parents to finish eating dinner... Did I mention that I am super nervous and freaking out!? I told my dad before dinner that I have something to give to him, his response? He asked me for my report card. I told him that yes, I have that too but that's not what I was talking about. Then he asked me if I was referring to the butterbraids that FFA is selling right now as a fundraiser. Again, yes I have that but no it's not what I meant. Obviously he has no idea about the letter I've been working on since the beginning of the school year or the picture I drew in art class for him, so he just gave me his goofy smile and sat down. My parents are talking about how their day was, blah, blah, blah so I'm sure he has forgotten about what I said :/ The picture and the letter are sitting in my room on my bed right now, and I'm waiting for the right time to give it to him. It's going to be so awkward. Well, here goes nothing...

gold :D

I still can't believe that we won gold at Opening & Closing! :) I think the entire team was in shock when they called our name. As Nick walked up to the table to receive our award he looked back at us with a look that said "Am I really supposed to be going up there right now to get a GOLD award?" It was really funny and I jumped on him when he came back. I was so happy and proud of my team.
Now time to rant a little bit... For the past two weeks I've had a sore throat and often times I sound croaky and gross. But I'm not sick because I don't have a fever, I'm not throwing up, I don't have a stuffy or runny nose, and my body doesn't ache. It's just my throat. I've taken all kinds of medicine but it never helps and now I'm carrying cough drops with me in my purse to help soothe the pain but my throat is still scratchy and I still sound funny. Does anyone know something I can do to make it better?  Please help :)

I'm stressing out :/

I feel like there is so much stuff going on and I can't handle all of it. There just aren't enough hours in a day. Ugh... First of all, my mom and I got in a huge fight the other night. I understand I'm her baby girl and I'm the youngest, but she needs to let go. At least a little bit. There's two ways to look at it; I'm only 17 so I'm young and immature, or I'm turning 18 and need some independence. She wakes me up every morning, makes my bed while I'm in the shower, makes me breakfast, does my laundry, and whenever she asks me to do something and I don't do it she lets it slide instead of holding me to it. Don't get me wrong, I appreciate everything she does for me and I love her more than anything, but if she doesn't give me the chance to be independent and grow up, how can I ever become an independent person? She has always been more of a friend to me than a mother. We are super close and I tell her EVERYTHING that goes on in my life. She isn't really strict with me, I can pretty much go wherever and do whatever I want to as long as she knows where I'm going, who I'm with, and what time I will be home. I don't really have a curfew except on school nights I have to be home AROUND 10:00 and on the weekends AROUND midnight unless I'm cosmic bowling, at a party, or call to check in with her. But the other night I came home at 12:30 (which is normal for me) and she completely flipped out that I wasn't home at midnight like she asked. I hate not knowing when she's going to act like a "parent" or like my "friend". We argued and cried for over an hour that night and woke my daddy up with our yelling. All I want is a little more independence. Because I'm the second child, my parents are already more lenient with me than they were with my brother, but I've always done as they've asked, I've been a good kid, I don't drink or smoke or anything else, I'm an honor roll student, I'm president of a club on campus and now I have a job on top of everything else. I know that they trust me, I know that they have raised me well, I just need a chance to prove to them that I can take care of myself. I know I still need them, I need their guidance, I need to know that they love me and will always be there for me.
Okay, I'm done with my parents. Now on to school and FFA. School isn't stressing me out that much considering I only have 4 classes and they are super easy, but I'm stressing out with FFA, being president which means everything pretty much falls on my shoulders, and having a job. I love FFA. I love how it has helped shape me as a person, as a leader. I love all the opportunities it has given me, all the places I've traveled to, all the events I've participated in, all the people I've met, and all the friends I've made. But so much of the stuff like meetings, football concessions, O/C practice, COLC, Ag. Venture, Planet Party Day, and State Conference take place either during school or after school which means I'm missing class, or having to ask for days off work. I've missed so many football games too because I've had to work the snack bar. I mean it's my senior year so I want to have fun and watch the games, ya know? Not to mention O/C contest is coming up next week and I really want our team to win gold this year, so that's really stressing me out. Well I guess I should stop here, it's not like you guys need to know about my crazy life anyways. Besides, this is just the beginning of the reasons why I'm stressed. And I guess compared to some peoples lives, mine really isn't that bad. I should try to be more positive and look on the bright side of things. I can't wait to go to the beach this weekend. It calms me down soooo much and I love it! :)