11 more days till...

CHRISTMAS!!!!! I'm super excited, I can hardly wait. Last weekend I got all of my shopping done so I'm not stressed about that anymore. Now all I have to do is wrap the presents (soon!) because my parents are mischievous snoops and no matter how hard I try to hide gifts, they still manage to find them. I like having a job though because now I actually have money to buy gifts for my family and friends instead of asking my mom for money, then spending it on her gift. haha

finally remembered to blog

Oh no!!! I feel like I haven't blogged in so long but I finally remembered to on my way home from school today. I've been so busy these past two weeks, lets see....

• November 20th~ I went roller skating for my cousin's 15th birthday. Surprisingly I had a lot of fun.
• November 21st~ Today was my Oompa's birthday and my mom, aunt, cousin's and I took him to lunch at the Sizzler in Modesto. Yummy! :)
• November 22nd~ My first day working at the Vans store in Modesto. It was crazy busy compared to the Tracy and Manteca stores but I had fun.
• November 23rd~ My dad wanted to take me to Morro Bay, so my parents and I left at 7 o'clock in the morning, drove for 5 hours because of all the pee breaks, spent 3 hours at the beach, and drove 4 hours home. So basically I drove 9  hours for 3 hours of fun :/ But I enjoyed it and the beach was beautiful. I have a lot of fun memories and great pictures from that day.
• November 24th~ I spent all day cooking for turkey day. Yay me!
• November 25th~ I cooked all morning, then cleaned the house before the family came over. Thanksgiving was nice, then that night I went out with my brother and his friends and smashed all our pumpkins ;) I felt so rebellious.
• November 26th~ My second day on the job, I worked on Black Friday. In an odd way I liked it.
• November 27th~ Billy, Courtney and I went to Sky High (my new favorite place). It's amazing! Billy, being the dummy he so often is, sprained his ankle in a matter of minutes. It was pretty entertaining though.
• December 1st~ 8th Grade Recruitment Day, I spent all day except fifth period in the Ag Department teaching the eighth graders about agriculture and showing them how to make a tissue paper flower, how adorable!
• December 2nd~ The afternoon was spent at the school farm working on the float for the Holiday Parade. Met a couple new people from other schools :)
• December 3rd~ Shaina, Morgan and I went roller skating again. There was a creepy man there that remembered my aunt from way back in the day when she worked there as a teenager..... :/
• December 4th~ Third day on the job. It just gets better and better.
• December 5th~ My mom and I spent most of the day decorating the house for Christmas. Yippee!!! Favorite holiday!!
• December 6th~ FFA Officer meeting this afternoon and tonight I'm going to the Intro to Art students play with Brooke and Elena to support Kenzie! :) Woohoo!

I could have been in Morro Bay today :/

Except my parents wouldn't let me ditch school to go to the beach. Everybody knows now how much I love the beach. It's my escape, it's where I go if I'm stressed out, it's like my home away from home, I guess you could say it's my happy place. It doesn't matter what beach it is, any beach is peaceful and amazing to me. I've never been to Morro Bay before but my daddy went there yesterday for work and came home and told me about it. We looked up pictures on the Internet and I saw how beautiful it is. Both my parents teased me by telling me we were going to go there today but then at the last minute told me no because today is my cousin's birthday and we were already invited to go to her house tonight for cake and ice cream. Hopefully we can visit Morro Bay over our Thanksgiving break :)

My name :)

I didn't finish writing about the meaning or history of my name in class today, so I am going to continue telling you about it. My initials are CBN, however my dads initials are DJN for Daryl Joseph Noeske, my moms are DJN for Diana Joyce Noeske, and my brothers are DJN for Dennis Joesph Noeske, so when I was little my brother told me I was adopted and that's why my initials are different. I didn't believe him so he went on to tell me that another reason why I was adopted is that I have green eyes and blonde hair and all of them have brown eyes and brown hair. I still didn't believe him, so he pointed out to me that there wasn't any baby pictures of me and that mom didn't have a baby book for me. Great. I'm adopted I thought. I asked my mom if I was and of course she said no but I wanted proof. Her proof was the video of my birth... Just dandy. The truth is I'm NOT adopted, thank you wonderful brother of mine for convinving me I was. By the way, I called my brother Doofus when I was younger because I couldn't pronounce his name correctly. My Nana always called me Precious and I am actually a lot like my Nana. My family tells me I have her green eyes and blonde hair. Sadly she passed away 3 days after my 9th birthday. But she and I were so much alike, I miss her. That's why I'm really proud of my middle name and knowing that I will always have a little part of her :)

Halloweeeeeeen

So my Halloween was interesting... Billy, Sean and I didn't carve pumpkins until about 6 or 6:30. I carved a face with BIG eyes, Billy attempted to make Mickey Mouse, and Sean carved a cat. Billy finally gave up, turned the pumpkin around and carved "copy drawn by WTF". (That's the side we showed on my front steps). Billy couldn't wait to go trick or treating but neither of the guys had a costume so they raided my old ones. I have a fairy outfit, a clown costume (eeeek!!), a lady bug, a referee shirt, and a hula girl. I followed them into my room and each of them quickly grabbed bits and pieces of each costume and mixed them together. They looked hilarious. The doorbell rang with trick or treaters and Billy ran to the door. It was a little girl and her mom but Billy scared the little girl, she wouldn't even take the candy. We continued getting dressed and after a couple pictures we finally left around 8 (a little late to start trick or treating, right?) We drove to Billy's uncles house to show him our crazy costumes, then picked up Sean's cousin. He was a fairy football player haha and finally we started trick or treating. I skated around like a hockey referee and literally only got one piece of candy so I stole Billy's later :) Overall the night was a lot of fun.

Ag Venture :D

Woohooo! That's what I said when I tthought I  was going to Ag Venture with Brookelyn. Then Mrs. Silva had to go and burst my bubble, which she actually enjoyed doing :/ You see, Ag Venture is a day that 3,000 third graders go to our school farm and high school ag students teach them about things related to agriculture. I didn't go my sophomore year because I thought it would be lame, but then my friends came back to school during 6th period and told me how much fun they had. High school students can be tour guides for small groups of 3rd graders, or presenters when they make a display board and teach the kids, or they can be a corn presenter where they recite a script about corn. Well I was going to be a presenter last year but they needed more guides so I became a V.I.P. guide which meant I gave tour guides of the farm to the superintendent. This also meant I had to be in FFA Official Dress. Greaaaat. So this year I was determined to be a presenter with my friend Brooke. We wanted to do bows or ribbon since we are in a floral class and let each student make their own bow. Mrs. Silva agreed to let us be partners until I walked into her 4th period class on Tuesday and saw my name wasn't next to Brookelyn's, instead it was at the top by itself. I asked myself why I didn't have a partner anymore, then realized that because I'm the President this year I have to be in Official Dress AGAIN and that I have to be a guide AGAIN. Can you tell that I'm bitter about this? I looked at Mrs. Silva and asked if she hated me, she just laughed. So I drew a :( next to my name and walked out of the room. I'm pretty bummed about this now and no longer looking forward to Ag Venture.

my Daddy's gift :)

So right now I'm sitting in my living room, listening to music and waiting for my parents to finish eating dinner... Did I mention that I am super nervous and freaking out!? I told my dad before dinner that I have something to give to him, his response? He asked me for my report card. I told him that yes, I have that too but that's not what I was talking about. Then he asked me if I was referring to the butterbraids that FFA is selling right now as a fundraiser. Again, yes I have that but no it's not what I meant. Obviously he has no idea about the letter I've been working on since the beginning of the school year or the picture I drew in art class for him, so he just gave me his goofy smile and sat down. My parents are talking about how their day was, blah, blah, blah so I'm sure he has forgotten about what I said :/ The picture and the letter are sitting in my room on my bed right now, and I'm waiting for the right time to give it to him. It's going to be so awkward. Well, here goes nothing...

gold :D

I still can't believe that we won gold at Opening & Closing! :) I think the entire team was in shock when they called our name. As Nick walked up to the table to receive our award he looked back at us with a look that said "Am I really supposed to be going up there right now to get a GOLD award?" It was really funny and I jumped on him when he came back. I was so happy and proud of my team.
Now time to rant a little bit... For the past two weeks I've had a sore throat and often times I sound croaky and gross. But I'm not sick because I don't have a fever, I'm not throwing up, I don't have a stuffy or runny nose, and my body doesn't ache. It's just my throat. I've taken all kinds of medicine but it never helps and now I'm carrying cough drops with me in my purse to help soothe the pain but my throat is still scratchy and I still sound funny. Does anyone know something I can do to make it better?  Please help :)

I'm stressing out :/

I feel like there is so much stuff going on and I can't handle all of it. There just aren't enough hours in a day. Ugh... First of all, my mom and I got in a huge fight the other night. I understand I'm her baby girl and I'm the youngest, but she needs to let go. At least a little bit. There's two ways to look at it; I'm only 17 so I'm young and immature, or I'm turning 18 and need some independence. She wakes me up every morning, makes my bed while I'm in the shower, makes me breakfast, does my laundry, and whenever she asks me to do something and I don't do it she lets it slide instead of holding me to it. Don't get me wrong, I appreciate everything she does for me and I love her more than anything, but if she doesn't give me the chance to be independent and grow up, how can I ever become an independent person? She has always been more of a friend to me than a mother. We are super close and I tell her EVERYTHING that goes on in my life. She isn't really strict with me, I can pretty much go wherever and do whatever I want to as long as she knows where I'm going, who I'm with, and what time I will be home. I don't really have a curfew except on school nights I have to be home AROUND 10:00 and on the weekends AROUND midnight unless I'm cosmic bowling, at a party, or call to check in with her. But the other night I came home at 12:30 (which is normal for me) and she completely flipped out that I wasn't home at midnight like she asked. I hate not knowing when she's going to act like a "parent" or like my "friend". We argued and cried for over an hour that night and woke my daddy up with our yelling. All I want is a little more independence. Because I'm the second child, my parents are already more lenient with me than they were with my brother, but I've always done as they've asked, I've been a good kid, I don't drink or smoke or anything else, I'm an honor roll student, I'm president of a club on campus and now I have a job on top of everything else. I know that they trust me, I know that they have raised me well, I just need a chance to prove to them that I can take care of myself. I know I still need them, I need their guidance, I need to know that they love me and will always be there for me.
Okay, I'm done with my parents. Now on to school and FFA. School isn't stressing me out that much considering I only have 4 classes and they are super easy, but I'm stressing out with FFA, being president which means everything pretty much falls on my shoulders, and having a job. I love FFA. I love how it has helped shape me as a person, as a leader. I love all the opportunities it has given me, all the places I've traveled to, all the events I've participated in, all the people I've met, and all the friends I've made. But so much of the stuff like meetings, football concessions, O/C practice, COLC, Ag. Venture, Planet Party Day, and State Conference take place either during school or after school which means I'm missing class, or having to ask for days off work. I've missed so many football games too because I've had to work the snack bar. I mean it's my senior year so I want to have fun and watch the games, ya know? Not to mention O/C contest is coming up next week and I really want our team to win gold this year, so that's really stressing me out. Well I guess I should stop here, it's not like you guys need to know about my crazy life anyways. Besides, this is just the beginning of the reasons why I'm stressed. And I guess compared to some peoples lives, mine really isn't that bad. I should try to be more positive and look on the bright side of things. I can't wait to go to the beach this weekend. It calms me down soooo much and I love it! :)

always waiting....

It seems like we spend our entire lives waiting, waiting for something to happen to us. But what's wrong with right now and enjoying living and what you're doing today, this minute, right now? I mean think about it, it's only September and yet stores are already selling Halloween costumes and candy. ABC Family is already advertising their 13 Nights of Halloween countdown. Other channels are playing Christmas movies. But what's wrong with enjoying September while its here instead of always looking forward to what's to come. For weeks the students at school have been talking about Homecoming week and the Homecoming football game, but there's been other football games that have been fun too. No matter what it is people are always waiting for something. Maybe you just broke up with a girlfriend or boyfriend and people tell you that only time will make you feel better. Or you're driving to the store and it's a red light, someone crossing the street, a train, or maybe even a car accident, but guess what? You're still waiting. I hear people talk about how they can't wait for it to be the weekend because they will see their friend, but why can't they see their friend on a Tuesday, or Wednesday? Or better yet, have fun doing other stuff until the weekend so that you aren't waiting. It's as if society makes you wait. Movie trailers that look super exciting and make you want to see the movie but it doesn't come out for several months. Then people wait and wait and wait for that movie, but in the meantime there are plenty of other movies that they could see. People make plans in advance then say I can hardly wait until this happens. But what's wrong with living in the moment? Enjoying the simple things that happen each day instead of just enjoying special days in which something happens? Seniors say they can't wait until graduation, but what about the 8 months between then and now? All the fun events we can participate in like football games, Homecoming, rallies, Winter Formal, Prom, etc? Can't we live our lives one day at a time instead of always looking forward to whats coming?

short and sweet

I don't have much to say  in like 7 minutes so I've got to keep this short and sweet. Hmmm... I have no idea what to say. la de da. Today is my last day working at the Vans store in the Tracy mall, then I get to start setting up the Manteca store. I'm super excited. And I guess tonight between nine and ten you can see Jupiter near the moon. So I'm going to the park tonight to chill with some friends and check out Jupiter. :) Peace

:] Brad Paisley

I'm superdy duperdy excited for the Brad Paisley and Darius Rucker concert tomorrow!!! You see, last March my mom purchased a "concert mania" package consisting of 6 different concerts spread out over the months. On my birthday i got a total of 12 tickets so that I could take a friend to each of the concerts with me and a few weeks later my brother got 12 tickets so that we could all go together. It's a country tour including Brooks & Dunn (their last tour EVER), Jason Aldean, Tim McGraw, Lady Antebellum, Toby Keith, Trace Adkins, Brad Paisley, Darius Rucker, Steele Magnolia, Rascal Flatts, and Kellie Pickler. One of the concerts was a day event and had about 12 artists but they are all new and just getting their names and music out to the public. It was their first concert. The first concert was my favorite one to go to. Brooke and I had so much fun and we each got a Brooks & Dunn t~shirt. Dennis took his friend Nicole and they got Jason Aldean t~shirts. We ran into Billy because he was there with his uncle. Actually to be honest, we were walking up to the grass area where we were sitting when someone grabbed me from behind and I panicked. That's when Brookelyn started laughing and I realized it was Billy. The next one we went to I took Brooke and Dennis took his friend Eric. They got drunk and hit on some drunk girls. It was funny and annoying because they spilled their beer on me. Hopefully Dennis won't drink as much tomorrow since he's taking his girlfriend and she isn't old enough to drink. So basically I'm really looking forward to it. Yay! :)

random list of things I did last weekend =)

* Went to Senior Walk~In Rally
* Drove friends home
* Gave some random guy my phone number (bad idea) lol
* Made a new friend
* Went to a job interview in the Tracy mall for Vans
* Went to lunch at McDonalds with Charlie a.k.a Candice
* Worked the Student Store stand at the football game
* Learned how to ride a quad with Billy, Charlie, and James a.k.a Wanda, Candice, and Jamie
* Played shuffle ball?
* Made another new friend
* Attempted to shoot a bow and arrow but I wasn't strong enough (probably a good thing because even the idea of me with a bow and arrow seems dangerous) lol
* Chores (boring :/)
* Received a phone call from Jessica the store manager at Vans saying I got the job. Yay!!!
* Ran around my house singing a one~of~a~kind "I got the job" song along with a special dance. hehe
* Went with my brother, his girlfriend, his friend, and my cousin to "house sit" in Livermore (The house was huge with a big screen tv, surround sound, and a pool! We stayed the night and had donuts for breakfast. Yummy!)
* Had a cat attack me
* Drove back to Tracy for work orientation and got a free pair of shoes! Woohoo!
* Went out with my friend to celebrate the fact that I got my 1st job

adventures

It was early Saturday morning and I was feeling adventurous. I text my friends to see what their plans were for the day and everyone replied nothing, so I made a list of things to do. Included in this list were Sky High, Micke Grove, "sexy road", Great America, Six Flags, Santa Cruz, beach, park, roller skating, Laser Quest, Knights Ferry, Columbia, Boomers, Fun Works, bowling, drive in movies, Sacramento Zoo, and the mall. Billy and Charlie replied saying that we should go to Santa Cruz so I invited Shannon and Tasha to go with us and we left around 1 pm. We were having hecka fun laughing about Shannon's party the night before and talking about what happened. We stopped at McDonald's in dublin for a potty break and to get something to eat. Thats where we saw the "Sidewalk closed. Please use other side" sign so I decided to ignore the sign and walk on the side walk. Tasha and I also took a picture with the sign to prove our point. This is when my mom called to let us know that there was a cheer competition going on at Santa Cruz and that it was packed with people so we decided to go to Half Moon Bay instead (great, we have to spend more money because of the $5 bridge toll).

Anyways more talking, laughing and singing along with the music. La dee da. Now were at the bridge with the "oil spill" in the water a.k.a. the shadows of the clouds. It seemed like we drove across the bridge at lightning speed because we arrived at the beach super fast. There was hardly anybody there so we chose a nice spot and layed out the blanket. It was breezy, overcast, and really peaceful. Billy attempted to teach me the proper way to throw a football but it was a lost cause so we just tossed it around (he hit Tasha in the head). Shannon and I played twister, Billy and Charlie kinda-sorta skim boarded or whatever its called but then he "broke" it so they went on a walk down the beach and found a cave. They came back and Charlie and I went exploring. On our walk back thats when it started, the tackle-wrestle-tag game thingymabobber. Guys against girls everyone chased eachother and fought. In the end we all dog piled on Charlie. We got a lot of good pictures that day and I'm super excited about that beacuse now I can add them to my other 25 photo albums. We left the beach around 8:30 and a really interesting ride home. I got home at 1 am and at 2 pm on Sunday Billy showed up to help clean my car. So thats my adventure of the weekend. Can't wait until camping next weekend! :)

8*23*10

I really enjoyed writing about my daddy today in class. It's the first time I've written something personal and it felt good to express myself and the love and appreciation I feel for him. I noticed after I wrote it though and when I re-read it that it didn't flow and I jumped around a lot from memories from my childhood, to when I was older, back to being a little kid again. So I think I'm going to keep writing about it, fix it up, and maybe make it into a letter to give to him? Should I? Because we don't usually TELL each other how we feel, we just know. And I think it would be super nice if I actually told him. Yesterday was his birthday and that was actually my inspiration for writing about him today. So if you think I should write a letter or something please let me know. Thanks! :)